"The Unbearable Truth..."

It was about this time on that warm winter evening that I finally realized it was the lie I feared it was... It was a promise he had no intention of keeping. And it was the denial of the most precious desire of my heart... the only thing I'd asked of him. Reconciling that with the truth of my love for him led to darkest day of my life. 

Although I loved him more than life itself, on that day we learned together that love cannot long suffer the absence of truth. It was January 14th, 2009 and not a day since has passed that I have not thought of what it felt like to realize it was only make believe. And yet every day since, my first thought upon opening my eyes each morning is that I still love him.

"I am always remembering... 

and my greatest fear is that I may not live long enough to forget."