"I Am Always Remembering..."

 
Little did I know that early that Sunday morning, now nineteen years ago today, the most significant day of my life had arrived. It was a lovely sunny Autumn day and I remember the sunshine streaming through the window onto the spot where I decided to kneel in prayer. That day, after decades of prayers to be somehow changed, I finally asked if I was as He intended me to be. Immediately, an unlike with all those previous prayers, God answered me straightaway. And I've never been the same since. But that was not actually what changed me.

Finally understanding what I'd needed to know since I was little more than a 5 years old boy, I then prayed to know the truth of love and of what I was feeling in my heart for the beloved one. Every question I had was answered by Him with cautious admonitions over the length of an entire afternoon. And as shadows began to fall across the once bright window, the final question of Him gave the answer I'd dared never to ask for or dream of.

Now filled with fear and courage, I visited him to explain the truth of my heart. I told him for the first time that I loved him. And in doing so, I'd shared the greatest truth of my entire life. I left after speaking my simple but profound truth; I'd never even taken my jacket off during the few minutes I stood there before him. I asked him not to say anything about what I'd said that night until he'd thought and prayed about it himself and then I left.

 

When I laid my head to rest that night, I wondered if my world would change and what the morrow would bring. That next morning, I discovered that my world had changed in every wonderous way I could imagine, and everything seemed gloriously new and beautiful as finally love' true journey had begun in earnest. I've looked back on that Sunday afternoon every day of my life since. It was October 15th, 2006 and yes, absolutely nothing was ever the same.

"I am always remembering...

And my greatest fear is that I may not live long enough to forget."